Happy kind of change

One early Sunday with my boys

Last Sunday, I went to the mall. Alone.  To gather my thoughts and also do a bit of shopping.  My Mom gave me an advance birthday gift you see, so I had money to burn LOL 

I wanted to spend the whole day, well, until about 6pm at the mall.  But I found myself checking the hour every so often, which was no easy feat as I didn't have a watch or a cellphone on me.  Yes, it was the kind of day when I just wanted to disapper and disconnect from others.  Anyway, back to time checking.  I had to ask strangers for the time, or glance at other people's watches.  Some might have thought that I was a pick pocket for watches LOL

7 years ago, it would've been splendid to spend my whole Sunday at the mall.  I would've found so many things to do to entertain myself.  Sat down in a cafe, drank coffee and read a book.  Had a meal.  Watched a movie.  Went shopping or window shopping.  Met up with friends.

But now, I just keep thinking, how lonely it was in the mall.  I keep noticing parents with their kids in tow.  Specially parents with toddlers/pre-schoolers.  I can see the parents' frustration at times and stress too.  And I also see how happy they are to spend the day with their kids and husbands/wives.

I had to go home as fast as I could... to be with my own family, my own pre-schooler and own hubby.  Life has changed.  It's a happy kind of change.  It's a change that fills up my heart with warmth.